Posted by: msannie48 | February 16, 2010

Beautiful Roses can touch the heart

          On Valentines day, my door bell rang.  There stood my son and his wife and my 5 year old grandson.  My grandson was stretching out a beautiful bouquet of “white” roses.  The most beautiful flowers I have ever seen.  Without warning, surprising myself I began to cry, simply because there was something about those pure white flowers that touched my heart.  I wonder if the Lord feels like that when we make a special effort to present our lives before Him with love and purity.  It was a special feeling.  I appreciate the love of my family more than words can ever tell.  I beleive it is a gift from God right along with all the other blessings he has bestowed on my life.

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Posted by: msannie48 | October 27, 2009

Genuinely Honest, Sincerely Truthful

            Oh, if only the ambitions of all the world and especially Christians was to be Genuine, Honest, Sincere and truthful at all times and especially with our own selves.  It has been so overwhelming to me lately how prevalent is the art of “self-deception”.   Books and blogs, everyone seems to have all the answers.  Some seem to think something to be so just because that is the way they believe it, some think there is no one truth, that whatever you believe in is truth like  Oprah.    If I was living in California when the wildfires were raging and I was content in my beautiful home on the hillside and I simply could not believe that God would allow the fire to come and burn up my home so I refused to listen to the news and refused to evacuate, how smart is that?  There has to be an absolute, something that is genuine, real and truth.  Truth is not what I have made up my mind that it should be, it is to be discovered to be searched for and found.  Sometimes the truth is staring us in the face but we refuse to accept it because it is painful or unpleasant.   When I saw the symptoms of Alzheimer’s in my husband I wanted badly to believe it was something else but truth prevailed and acceptance was easier than fighting the truth.  So it is with the word of God.  There is a truth but it will never be clear to us until we are willing to accept it.

Posted by: msannie48 | October 20, 2009

Expectations

Cairl           I have decided the thing that gets us down is Expectations!  If life does not live up to our expectations we somehow feel like we missed out.  Like we have a hardship or are some sort of victim.  So if we go back and look at what our expectations were and how we got them we might find out that we are really right where we are supposed to be but never expected to be. 

            In those inspiring books of my youth, those biographies where great men and women gave up themselves to selflessness for the good of others, I would feel a longing to someday walk that kind of path.  In my most secret heart I hoped that someday I could achieve something noble.  Then I met Cairl and that was it.  I no longer expected to do great things, only to do ordinary things well.  Raise my family well.  Please the Lord and have a good life along the way.  I thought we would simply be a Grandma and a Grandpa and we would enjoy our empty nest with some traveling if we could afford it and maybe a small home in the country with a big garden.  Those were my expectations.  But I was called back to the noble deed idea.  Of course this noble deed was not going to make me famous or notable, for the Lord was simply calling me to give up my own life and use it to care for another one of his children.   I think sometimes of how God had it all planned.  He saw this longing to do a noble deed and he had a son who would one day need someone who was willing to be there for him so He narrowed the 600 miles between the places of our birth and brought us together.  He also gave me a desire to have my own business.  How blessed I have been to have a way to support us and the freedom to come and go as needed to be here for the dear one that God put in my charge.

Posted by: msannie48 | October 15, 2009

Total Surrender

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Posted by: msannie48 | October 15, 2009

Sufficient Unto The Day

     Matthew 6:34 – Take therefore no thought for the morrow:  for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself.  Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.  Another great nugget of wisdom from the Master, but what does it mean?  For years I pondered this and then when life became so tumultuous,  I realized that bad days pass and good days can be as close as the morning – then it came to me. Take one day at a time.  Whew, what a relief.  A bad day could be over when I laid my head on the pillow.  I had no reason to expect the next day to be bad too.  Why had I not learned to live this way a long time ago?  

      Just six weeks ago we had some of those bad days.  In the natural scheme of things it looked like it was time to say Good-bye to my dear one.  With fever and distress in breathing, the doctor and nurse were looking for the end and so I kneeled before the One Who has all of Life in His hands and said – He is yours, let your will be done.  Within days the fever was gone, the glucose levels declined to normal, the insulin dosages became smaller and the broken body showed signs of life again.   The home nurse was here today for a check up.  He was so amazed at the improvement.  Thinking it was some tender and knowing care I had provided he threatened to call in CNN to report the miraculous result that had brought my sweetheart back.  Somehow I can never get across to his scientific mind that our many successes along this way have nothing to do with me, it is who I know, not what I know.  I tried to tell him it was prayer but it only seems to fall on deaf hears. And so Matthew 11:15 tells us He that hath ears to hear let him hear.   So tonight I go with gladness and joy that God has a plan for us and we will follow Him.

Posted by: msannie48 | October 14, 2009

Taking advantage of time

< It has been on my mind for a long time that I should start blogging. I waste so much time trying not to be lonely that I thought a blog might serve some useful purpose. You see I am all about not wasting. Not wasting time, effort, money and most of all, our allotted time here on this earth. I am already 60 years old and that means at the least I have already lived two thirds of my life and only have the last third to go. It seems when you get to that home stretch you don’t really know how much time you have left here. That does not  bother me. I have a great confidence that the life after this one will be the best. That is because I believe whole heartedly in the Bible. The Bible assures me that if I give my life to Jesus, live for him and endure to the end I have the promise of everlasting life. I just read a scripture again a couple of days ago that renewed that assurance in my heart for in Galatians 6 verse 7 to 10 we read: Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. And let us not be weary in well doing; for in due season we shall reap if we faint not.. Nevertheless I would like very much like to accomplish something worthwhile with my time here. Life is always a journey but the past 10 years have taken me places I never could have dreamed of as a young woman. Delightful? No. Worthwhile? Yes. In 1998, my 54-year-old husband was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease. He is the love of my life. He brought so much fun to my serious nature. He lies in a hospital bed now, right beside the queen size bed in our bedroom. He looks out of eyes that seem so lost. He can not tell me what he thinks, if he can even think or what he needs, his brain has died and left him lying by the road, hoping only for a good Samaritan to feed and clothe him. The Lord said as often as ye did it to the least of these, ye have done it unto me. Well going by that, I am feeding, clotheing and comforting the Lord daily. This is a privilege and yet sometimes it seems so much like a cross.

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